Wednesday, August 17, 2011 ♥
Almost 10 ten days, I left here empty. I still trying my best to accept what has become fact. Withdraw me and the broken promises have left plenty of saddness. The fact of keep pondering and being stubborn tore us apart last few weeks. I can't deny I bring you tears. Those conflicts and quarrels stack up each day. I seem to be selfish and keep thinking I was right with what I have planned.
Cousins and familys' return from holland make my decision even more firm. I seriously believed that was the ultimate choice. A slower pace of life, four seasons in a year and everything. When you decide to put down and leave for better future, the expected become the unexpected. That moment was a real bad fall. It was worst than digging your own graveyard. It was even more suck when the text was filled with the biggest secret and emotions but was send wrongly :( I swear I was even more upset.
Now the only thing I could do is set the faith and move on. Belive their words and trust them back. Wishing all the best for next year and a pass on the road.
