Friday, September 18, 2009 ♥
It's more than you could understandClassmates are really very nice and I appreciate the heart to heart talk I had with Benedict , keith Tan & Sally in the middle of the night.I never know I could share with them instead with my usual click.Sharing & saying out what I've kept in my heart for so long was a relieve I'm feeling much more better.Although I nearly tears and break down at that moment.They really make me think that deep.Some of the questions are what i've been pondering over and kept asking myself.Keith tan talked and explained sensibly to me.Is this what I really want?The feelings are damn shitty.Sally was right I try hard to enjoy my holiday to the fullest and look happy in front of everyone.I hide all my tears and saddness away.I really wish I could forget everything and be my myself truely.I look fake these days.Misery drag and moods are damped.Result out today.Heart was beating as fast as it could.I'm the second to check out the result using Benedict's laptop right after Shengyang this morning.It was rather disapointed, my grades slip.But I won't feel discourage.I'll continue to strive hard for next semster.
